It's not always smooth sailing

I really wish I could say that it's super easy for me to lose all this weight but we all know that would be a BIG lie. Friday and Saturday proved to be major challenges for my willpower and determination.

I work shift work and it's rare that two consecutive days start at the same time. Most of my days as of late have started between 7 and 8 am and I'm usually home by 7 to 8 pm. Friday was different, 5:30am start. So I'm out the door by 4:30 and as part of my usual habit I had my "breakfast" before I left. In hindsight I'm not sure that was such a good idea or not. I've been sticking loosely to a schedule of eating every 3-4 hours. This way my blood sugar doesn't dip too much and my stomach always has something to do. So starting my day so early really threw me off and in no time flat I was feeling famished. I trudged on through the best I could still dealing with the only rule I have when I'm at work; "I can eat anything I want as long as it comes out of my cooler bag." By the time I got home at about 4:30 I was already feeling starved beyond belief and it was about 3 hours since my last shake and I was facing only one meal left for the rest of the day.

I think I did what anyone else would do, not wanting to fall off the wagon, I grabbed the dinner that would give me the greatest volume of food. I usually have 4-5 frozen dinners on hand that run from 200-300 calories each so I'm less likely to succumb to the other evils that lie in wait in the fridge.

Saturday was just as bad but to the other end. It was a much later start than usual, 9:30 and none of that helped at all to get me back to any kind of a regular schedule. Sunday I was off and that should have let me get things back to normal right? Wrong.

Went to see Monster House in 3D and because of when we had to leave it meant eating a bit early before and a bit late after. Well wouldn't you know it but someone in the row in front of me had a HUGE order of poutine and boy did that thing smell both amazing and disgusting at the same time. If you've never had it then it's something you must experience if you ever venture north of the border. It's basically overcooked french fries, cheese curd and spiced beef gravy. It's gooey and messy hence the name which loosely translates to "big mess". Well this mess in front of me was driving me crazy. As much as I knew what it was and remembered how much I enjoyed it, the smell was acutally on the disgusting side. Now I don't know if it was because it was movie theatre poutine or it's because my brain is changing how it perceives food.

In the end I was able to stay strong and I have never once deviated from my path. Once in a while (about every 3-4 days) I will treat myself to a XL Timmy's coffee w/double cream & splenda (milk in coffee is just wrong and it tastes nasty), but having just looked at what that's costing me calorie wise I'm going to have to cut that back some, ok a lot. I always thought that coffee was calorie free and it was just the cream I had to worry about oh well...