Diving head first into an empty swimming pool

Yes, it's dumb and yes it hurts and yes....I did just that (well metaphorically speaking).

Things had been going fairly well even with that small plateau I hit but somewhere along the way I think I got lost. 2 out of the past 3 days (Monday and today) have involved MAJOR binges on my part. No it wasn't candy or ice cream or any of the typical ammunition used with such dietetic attacks. This was meat, cheese and mayonaise (at least it was low fat hehehe).

After both times I felt like shit. I was thinking "what the hell did I just do!" Here I am 60 pounds lighter than when I started and fitting into clothes I haven't been able to wear in about 3 years and I'm destroying it all!

Have I given up? No. Have I lost sight of my goal? Maybe a little. Have I become bored with my program? Umm...yes. For nearly 12 weeks I've been doing the same thing day in and day out meal wise. There has been very little variety or change in the routine. I know I used to use non-fat sugar-free yougurt instead of milk for my shakes once in a while (roughly the same amount of calories - Dannone Sillouette brand) but maybe I need to do something else, something more.

I know I've been horrible about going to the gym. I've had ZERO motivation and it's been about 3 weeks since I've been there. I have lots of excuses but no good reasons.

I think what added to this (this time) is that I've had 3 days off in a row. Three days of being stuck in the house and being BORED! At work it's not an issue and tomorrow I start my week (4 on, 3 off, repeat) so those days will be easier.

So what will I do? Well first off I'll get over being pissed, angry, depressed, frustrated, and every other bad thing towards myself and brush myself off and start again. It's not the end of the world, just a nasty pothole that I thought was a puddle.